I lost my oldest son this weekend. I have 5 kids and my oldest son, 22 years old, lost his multi year battle to depression this weekend.
I've been a long time CP member and while I don't post a lot, I've been here for a long time.
I post here for a simple reason... Love those in your life that you have the opportunity to love. Whether it is you kid, parent, sibling or close friend. Love them.
I never missed the opportunity to tell my son he was loved, hugging him and having part of our regular life. But from here on out, I will never have that opportunity again.
He leaves behind 4 siblings who are wrecked by this - brothers aged 20, 15 & 13, and a sister who adored him age 10.
We all will get through this, but I can attest that the pain that is felt through this has no words in any language that accurately depict the pain.
Goddamn. I’m so sorry man. I can’t even imagine. My kids are 6 and 10 I can’t even pretend to put myself in that headspace.
One thing I know for sure is you can’t apply logic to legitimate psychological conditions. They aren’t operating under the conditions of logic. It gets lost somewhere in there and they can’t see the world objectively. Accordingly you can’t feel responsible for it.
I am so sorry. I have a family member that has struggled with some of these issues, and I hope never to know what it’s like. I think out of my 300 Facebook friends, about a half-dozen or so have committed suicide. I wish I had the answers. I’ll be thinking about you and your family. [Reply]