I lost my oldest son this weekend. I have 5 kids and my oldest son, 22 years old, lost his multi year battle to depression this weekend.
I've been a long time CP member and while I don't post a lot, I've been here for a long time.
I post here for a simple reason... Love those in your life that you have the opportunity to love. Whether it is you kid, parent, sibling or close friend. Love them.
I never missed the opportunity to tell my son he was loved, hugging him and having part of our regular life. But from here on out, I will never have that opportunity again.
He leaves behind 4 siblings who are wrecked by this - brothers aged 20, 15 & 13, and a sister who adored him age 10.
We all will get through this, but I can attest that the pain that is felt through this has no words in any language that accurately depict the pain.
Prayers with you, brother. Lost my son same way 11 days before his 17th birthday. It’s still so fresh even after 14 years, that I still can hardly think about him without bawling my eyes out. Nothing is worse than losing a child. If you even need to talk, please reach out. [Reply]
Man, my heart sunk when I read the title of this thread. Just recently, my oldest (daughter) had a scare in which we thought there was a possibility she may have cancer, so we followed protocol and she got everything checked and we were fortunate enough to have good news… Just a cyst. Scared me to death. I can’t imagine what you are going through. I was personally much more depressed at your sons age than I am now at 41 and when times were stressful back then, the ideation of finding a way to not be here to endure the pain of it would cross my mind. Now 20 years later, I am happy to be here and feel awful for putting my parents through that worry. I truly wish your son could have hung in there a bit to where they eased up, for he may have been the same way. Whatever the case, that’s a nightmare man… I don’t know you, but reading this cut deep and I wish your entire family the best in this terrible situation. [Reply]
Originally Posted by Coochie liquor:
Prayers with you, brother. Lost my son same way 11 days before his 17th birthday. It’s still so fresh even after 14 years, that I still can hardly think about him without bawling my eyes out. Nothing is worse than losing a child. If you even need to talk, please reach out.
Very sorry to hear Dave. We lost my 19 yo niece a couple years ago and I have no words to help. It just sucks. Remember to love the others because you still have them. [Reply]
Vegas Dave… my oldest is 22 as well and I cannot even begin to comprehend what you and your family are going through. Prayers for you and your family. [Reply]